So Zayn left One Direction. Now I’m seeing people cutting themselves on twitter over it and using the hash tag cut 4 zayn.

This is very disturbing to me. Self harm is not in any way a joke. I want to make that very clear. For people who struggle with self harm every day seeing these pictures can trigger that making them want to do it again.

I strongly urge you to call the national suicide hot line 1 (800) 273-8255 if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and self harm. Your life is worth it. You are beautiful and you will be missed. If you just need someone to talk to please feel free to talk to me <3 My love goes out to every one of you <3

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Project Pan 4×4

Project pan 4×4 (four by four) was started by Amber F on you tube. It is to finish 4 by the 4th of July. 

I decided to do this project after almost finishing everything in my 7 by spring. I had a lot of fun with that project and encourage you to start one of your own! If you already participate in project pans please post your link in the comments, I would love to read or watch yours!

The first thing I want to finish is this light taupey shade in the wet n’ wild color icon 8 pan palette in comfort zone.


The color is the top color on the brown side. It is supposed to be the browbone color on the green side, but the pan wasn’t attached so I used double sided tape to hold it into the brown side. It broke before I got to use it so I repressed it. I’m going to use the messy spots that didn’t get in the pan before I start working on the pan. I received this in a sale from someone with 2 shadows already depoted.

The second thing I want to use up is this wet n’ wild coverall cream foundation in the shade medium/tan.


I couldn’t mark where the product was because it was in the black so I used washi tape. I’m currently at the bottom of the tape. I want to use this up because once it hits summer I won’t be this color anymore.

I want to use up this Milani Buzz Worthy lip gloss in the shade Bee Have. 


I have so many tube lip glosses and I never use them so I want to start moving them out of my collection. If I finish this one I will add another one to the project. I’m hoping if I keep this in my back pack and apply it through the day I will be able to get it finished pretty fast.

Last but not least, I wanted an easy product.


This cover girl trumatch primer will be easy for me to get through paired with the foundation I’m panning. I think I’m around halfway done with this right now and there is a lot of pan showing. This isn’t the full sized product, but after I get through the other primers I have I will probably purchase the full sized one.

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Project Pan Finish Seven By Spring FINALE!

I was supposed to post this on 3/20/15 but I ended up being really busy so I’m two days late! Sorry guys!

While I planned on finishing 6 products and hitting pan on 1 eyeshadow, two of my products went unfinished. I was able to finish 4 products and hit pan on the eyeshadow though!


I finished my better than sex mascara, my two urban decay eyeliners in perversion and zero, and my cover girl lipstick in peony.


I actually dug down into the lipstick with a lip brush for days until it was empty. When I got to the point where I couldn’t apply it from the tube anymore I started carrying around a lip brush. It took me about 2 weeks to finish this after it looked finished because there was so much product left inside.


I was also able to hit a lot of pan on Buck from my naked palette. I wanted to hit pan on it because I have the full size in another palette and I want to finish the one in the naked palette so I can move on to the other.  I only used it in my crease so this was a lot of progress. Also, Side Car wasn’t in my project, but I made pretty good progress on that one! I hit pan on it about a week after I hit pan on Buck.

I wasn’t able to finish the Rimmel Stay Matte powder that I planned on finishing.


I finished most of it, and had I worn makeup every day I would have finished the whole thing. Once it got past the last ring it started to break so I ended up repressing it. After I repressed it I used about a quarter of what was left, so I’ll be able to finish this soon.

I was also unable to finish the Maybelline Dream Mouse blush.


I really tried to finish it, and I made a lot of progress, but about 3 weeks ago I had to stop using it because it started breaking me out pretty badly. I’m going to give this another try soon but if it continues to break me out I’m going to throw it away. It’s old and there’s a very good chance that it isn’t good anymore. 
I also finished 3 other products along with my this project.


I finished a sample of a Revlon primer and a sample of the Urban Decay Naked BB Cream. I ended up cutting top off of the BB cream because I couldn’t squeeze anything else out of it and I’m glad I did because there was another 3 days of product left in it. I also finished a soft lips chapstick. Like the lipstick, I dug everything out of it and used all of that too because I didn’t want to waste any of it. I think I am going to do seasonal empties after this, so my next one will be the first day of summer.

Amber F on YouTube wants to start a new project pan 4×4. We will finish 4 products by the 4th of July and update around the 4th of every month. I have decided to join her in this project and I’m going to post my intro sometime this week and take the pictures Monday because I’m starting Monday.

If you are doing a project pan make sure you leave a comment down below with the link to your blog post or YouTube so I can see! I love seeing everyone’s progress!!

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Finding The Right College For YOU

I’ve decided to start the series I have been talking about doing for about a year now. Here’s the start of a brand new college related series (:

So you’ve decided to go to college, but there’s SOOO many of them. How do you decide which one is right for you? How do you even BEGIN looking for colleges?

The first step is to decide what you want to major in. If you don’t know for sure that’s absolutely fine, most schools have an undeclared option.  If you are going to start out undeclared, decide on a few things you might be interested in.

Make sure you have paper and something to write with and begin your search. There are a lot of different places you can do a school search. If your high school requires you to use naviance there is a searching tool on there. If not, you can use collegeboard.org. Another great option is a simple Google search. One of the best things you can do is to go to a college fair but I will make a separate post just about those.

As you start coming across schools start writing down information about them on your paper. Make sure you write down the Web address for the schools website so you can go through their site at a later time.

Once you have a list of schools you want to look into grab some index cards or some more paper and have a separate paper/card for each school. Go through their website and write down some things you really like about each school so you can look back at it later. I personally used index cards and kept them in a coupon filer in alphabetical order.  If you are going to school as an undeclared major make sure you write down on the paper/card what majors they have that would interest you. If that is the case you should probably look at schools that have more than one major you are interested in incase you decide that you want to change your major.

If you have a chance talk to a representative from the college. They will give you a lot of information about the school. Before you talk to them make a list of questions you want to ask them. They will be able to answer most if not all of the questions you have.

A very important part of the process is visiting the college you want to go to. You can’t make a decision about going there until you visit. I know of a lot of people that go to the school I am at that did not visit before they came and they found out once they got here that they don’t like the school. One school that I visited I knew the moment I walked into the buildings that it wasn’t the school for me. You will get the feeling that it either is or isn’t the school for you.

Most importantly,  the earlier you start searching the less stress you will have in the process. Good luck in your searches! <3

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Project Pan Finish Seven by Spring 2015 Update #1

I decided I’m going to do two week updates on my project pan. I know it has only been a little bit over a week, but that is how it works out so that the updates fit in the time frame I need them to (:

I’m actually surprised at the progress I have made on some of these products in just a week. Especially since the only thing I tend to reapply is lipstick. I have made progress on my Too Faced Better Than Sex mascara, but I can’t show you a difference because it doesn’t show through the tube. I had to add saline solution to it because it started drying out. I want to be able to finish it off. I think I will probably only get a maximum of one more week out of it.

I have made some progress on my eyeliners.


On the left is the first picture of them, and on the right is where they are now. I have sharpened Zero (top) twice and I don’t think I will be able to sharpen it anymore. I think once that gets down all the way that will be the end of it. I will try to sharpen it more though.

Perversion has much less progress. I’m trying to use up Zero first and then move on to Perversion.  If those two both get finished I have a few other eyeliners I want to work through.

I have made a very small dent in Buck in my Naked palette. 


The pictures on the left are from the first post, the ones on the right are from today. I have been using it in my crease every day, but I’m going to try something with it on my lid to make a little bit more progress. Through this project pan I’ve realized there are a lot of very pretty shades of eyeshadow in the Naked palette that I never use. I’ve started using the darker colors much more than I was before.

My Rimmel Stay Matte has a lot more progress than I thought it would at this point. I didn’t realize how easy it is to finish up a powder once you begin to hit pan.


It’s almost hard to believe that I’ve used that much powder in a little bit over a week. I’ve been trying to work around the ring to make it easier to see the progress I’ve made.

The Maybelline blush has quite a bit of progress but I wouldn’t say it’s anything drastic.


I have been applying it with a foundation brush. I never liked applying foundation with the brush but it works very well for this blush!

Last, but not least, is my Covergirl lipstick.


I have made so much more progress on this than I expected to! It’s almost to the point where I can’t apply it straight from the tube! When I do get to the end of it I will start using a brush because there is a lot more product on the inside of the tube.

I will update you guys again on this in about two weeks! See you soon!

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Project Pan Finish Seven by Spring 2015

I have a very large makeup collection and it is always growing, but I recently discovered many people on YouTube doing “Project Pan.” I thought this was a great idea and I wanted to jump on the band wagon. My original plan was to just go through my makeup and pick a few things out and pick a date, but once I picked products out I realized I had seven so I’m going to jump on board with everyone who is doing finish 7 by spring!

In case you don’t know what a project pan is, it is picking a few products from your collection and using them completely. You can also set a goal instead of having your goal be to completely finish it. Often times if you are doing a project pan you also go on a no buy where you dont purchase any new makeup products. I am on a no buy through my project pan. There are many different project pans happening on YouTube right now including Pan That Palette, 7 by Spring,  and 5 by Cinco De Mayo. I will update you guys on my progress a few times before the end date, and I will definitely update you at the end. March 20th is the first day of Spring, so I’m hoping to pan these products by then!

The first thing I want to use up is this Maybelline Dream Mousse Blush in the shade Soft Plum.



I’ve had this for quite some time. It’s a darker color and it’s great for Winter time, so I want to just finish it up and move it out of my collection.  I believe these were discontinued,  but I bought mine after that at Big Lots. I love this blush, but I stopped reaching for it when my collection started growing.

I want to pan two of my Urban Decay eyeliners. I have so many of these liners and I need to start getting through them without buying any more eyeliners. The first one I want to get through is Zero. 


This liner is so small. It will probably take less than a week for me to get through this if I use it every day. I stopped using it when I started using perversion and I kind of forgot about it. The pink line marks how much product I have left right now.

The second one I want to get through is my Perversion liner. I have another one as back up and this one is getting small so I want to just finish it up.


This was originally a full sized eyeliner and has gotten pretty small. I know these are expensive, but I have so many black eyeliners and once Spring hits I will probably start using more colored eyeliners.  Panning this liner will make the second full sized Perversion I have gone through! 

I also want to completely finish my Rimmel London Stay Matte Pressed Powder. I loved this powder for a very long time but my skin has been very dry lately and this powder makes me look like I’m peeling after a bad sunburn.


I have already significantly hit pan so this shouldn’t take too long. I’m really hoping I can get through this one in the next two months!

I am a lipstick hoarder. I know. But this one NEEDS to go.



This CoverGirl NatureLuxe lipstick is in the shade Peony and it is so beautiful. They discontinued this line and I was very upset about it, but I have two back ups of this lipstick so I want to finish it up as much as I can. I used this a lot in the summer one year because it has an spf of 20 and I work outdoors. I just recently found this in Big Lots though, so now that I have two back ups it’s time for this to go.

My favorite mascara is my Too Faced Better Than Sex.


But I think it’s almost empty, and I have so many samples of mascara that I haven’t even opened yet. I want to be able to start moving through some of those, so I want to finish this one up. Expect to see a review of this on my other blog very soon!

The hardest thing for me to pan is my last product. This one I don’t intend on completely finishing because I know it’s not possible in two months. However, I do have a goal of at least hitting pan on this one.



The shade Buck in my Urban Decay Naked Palette. I LOVE this shade so much. I use it in my crease a lot, but it doesn’t look like I’ve made a dent. I want to at least hit pan in this because I have the full sized shadow in another palette from Urban Decay. I’m not sure how long it will take me to completely finish this one, but eventually that is my plan.

If any of you guys are doing a project pan let me know!  Comment the link to your YouTube video or your blog post or even just tell me what the products you are panning are! Good luck!

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A New Year, A Fresh Start

Happy New Year everyone!

At the beginning of the year everyone is always making new years resolutions and many are struggling to keep them. I have decided to make a few that will be easy to keep for me. First on the list is I want to get back into blogging on both of my blogs. I plan on starting a section on this one about college related things. If there’s anything you want me to post about let me know,  I’m always open to ideas!

I also want to get into healthier eating. I started my first semester of college in August and since I am living on campus my eating habits are not at all the best.

As this is the beginning of a new year, I also decided to make a change that’s not a resolution. I want to drink more tea. My senior year of high school I went through a period of time where I was drinking tea every night and often I would also drink a cup during the day. During that time I felt the best that I have felt in a long time mentally and physically.  I just bought a beautiful little tea pot that I can take to college with me last night.


I also purchased a few things from Teavana online last night because they are currently having a sale. You can also use the code RMN15 to get $15 off an order of $75 or more. It is a great deal especially with so many teas on sale. If you want to get into it now is a great time. If you are going to do this I would definitely suggest going through ebates because you will get 6% cash back on your order!

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season. As far as all of our resolutions go, may the odds be ever in our favor (:

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